Entry 12

This next post on this list is about a moral dilemma.

Back in my youth, I sold and experimented with every drug you can name. Well, not heroin, but I do not like needles so that was out the door before it had a chance. The rest though I have done and sold many times. I am not proud of it, but I do not regret it either. I am a searcher, and I like to try new things and experience new things. Also, it taught me a lot about the world, myself, and especially that things are not as black and white as adults try to make them seem.

As far as a dillemma that comes up quite often is friends who still do some of these things. Now, I am not against marijuana at all. Its natural, and everyone should know that alcohol is worse for you then marijuana could ever be. Its these other drugs though. I am not going to say they are not fun, because they are, but they are bad for you and your health. I can feel the after effects to this day.

My dillemma is sometimes people feel I do not have room to talk against drugs since I did so many and sold them. However, I disagree, I think I am EXACTLY the person who should speak out against them. I have lived it, been through it, seen what happened to my life and others, and to be honest, I would say I am an expert on the subject.

I always thought school counselors were straight bullshit. None of these guys had been through some of this stuff, or even used a drug ever. They get what they read from books and try to help students that are struggling with whatever. Its crap. If I am struggling with something in life, I want to talk to someone who has lived through it and actually experienced it. Not some idiot with a smile and a tie trying to be my friend. So I feel I am qualified to give my opinion on drugs and drug use. As a matter of fact, there is a lot more things I believe I would be great on helping kids with. Ive seen it and done it all in a lot of areas. I think that is what makes a good counselor. Real life experience, not what you learned from a book while laying in your bed, no girlfriend, no friends, studying life through the words of some other smoe who hasnt experienced it either. The real counselors in life are the ones thats lived it.

So in conclusion, I think I am the best man at the job. I also know you do not tell them no to do it. You do not shun them. You do not do anything but offer advice, help, and lend an ear to them when they need you. Share your experiences with them and let them learn from your stories without you ordering them what to do. People never change because YOU want them to, they have to want to change. They will eventually learn how bad drugs are, or they wont and it will kill them. This sounds bad, but thats the facts and some people cannot be saved. All you can do is support them and be there friend, and share your experiences and hope they see the truth about things such as this. Sometimes all someone needs is an ear.